I am writing this today straight from my heart, I am THANKFUL.
Thankful for the beauty of family and the complexities of it too.
I grew up in a small cluster, My Mom, Dad, Sister and myself.
Even as I write this I find that my sentences are short and small.
A symbol of the tight and tiny unity that we shared.
Growing up on a farm in Idaho, far removed from the rest of the world,
I was sheltered, protected, and nurtured.
My sister grew up.
I grew up.
We left the safety of our parents and our home.
I went on to marry and have a family.
My sister moved away and married.
My sister went on a boating trip, she never returned from that trip.
Only one of the four people who went boating in Puget Sound that day did.
He was not alive.
That was 38 years ago.
Naturally, there is not a day that goes by that Sandra is not in my heart and thoughts.
I always wonder how different all of our lives would have been.
I wonder who and what her children may have been like.
I miss her.
This tragic experience forever altered my little family's response to situations, attitude, expectations,
mind set and behavior.
We were forced to focus on what we had, because what we had lost was so great.
We became increasingly aware, with a deliberate mindset, of what we had to be THANKFUL for.
We prayed, we read, we prayed some more.
We worked, and continue to work on learning how to cast aside-
sweating over much of the small stuff.
Now we are in full Holiday mode and there are many sentimental triggers for most of us.
We are swinging into Thanksgiving, and then Christmas is just around the corner.
As much as we embrace these times of gratitude and thankfulness, it is very easy to become
overwhelmed with family expectations, old hurts, sweet and sad memories and loss.
"To do something, however small, to make others happier and better, is the highest
ambition, the most elevating hope, which can inspire a human being."
During my usual morning routine, while drinking my coffee and folding clothes.
(This darling tin apron, which hangs on my laundry wall, thank you Samantha!)
Got me to thinking about how all of us, every single one of us...has a messy life.
Those of us who are buying Turkeys, making pies, chopping celery for the stuffing.
We are all a mixture of our messy life experiences, but we can change ourselves and the scars
in our memories by going with a deliberate and conscious mindset into each day.
We have the beautiful opportunity to create new experiences, new memories, and stronger
bonds by choosing to live a life with thankfulness, inspiration, forgiveness, and letting go.
"Experience is not what happens to a man. It is what man does with what happens to him."
~ Aldous Leonard Huxley
Today I am thankful for all of my family, for those who have gone to be with our Heavenly Father.
For my beautiful children, grandchildren, and step children. Your lives have enriched mine.
I am thankful for having the complexities that go along with having you all, to call you mine, to be
with you, to walk with you, to love you.
Happy Thanksgiving Dear Ones, with all of my love.